Getting Closer..

I still left 5 days to NS
im so nervous
i hope God can guide me when im undergoing every activities there
one of them is ' overnight in the jungle'
this is what i scare the most
i have never done this before in my life
and LT advice me to keep my friend close as he ever been there before..
Ya..
this is the time i need to rely fully on my friends but not my parents
My dad had prepare bout 90% of the stuffs i need to bring to NS
this indicates that the date is getting closer than close
and my heart is pumping faster than fast
3 months...
i hope the time pass as quick as possible
although i know i will learn a lot of things there and will have a lot of new friends
but these just dont attract me or make me feel better
AH
again...
what to do.. i just have to accept this fact
After i come back ,
i think i will just stay at home for a period of time
~to rest~
i still havent go yet
shouldnt think of tat first
haha
well ,
one day before i leave to NS
believe me
i sure will have difficulty to sleep
INSOMNIA
T.T
one day before SPM i also had that problem
when i shut my eyes , i can see the image of myself cracking my head to think of the answer ( it means i dont know how to do) this makes me even worse
but when i sit for BM paper 1 , it actually not as terrible as i thought =)
Thank God
but i dont know will it be the same or not for NS
most probably.... NOPE
SOB~~

Anyway..
i should go to bed now..
goodnitess ^_^